slow start.......

thrumming a rested mind awake- up and at 'em atom ant!! and into the sky, skimming the surface like pelicans- open mouthed and heavy winged.

filling our bellies with more then just sustinance. attempting to be full of life again- attempting to squelch the emptiness inside with something soothing- something that won't let us down.

i'm always squinting up at the sky, that is if i'm not watching my feet- one then the other then the one then the other- carry my to my destination. but where is that exactly?


the consistancy- the vastness- free of the worry that in here on the ground. i want the cherry blossoms to surround me and i want to fade- we want to fade- alltogether in sync to the heartbeat of music.

i'm leashed to a post made of  rough granite, chiseled without care and slapped in one spot for the only purpose to chaining me to it.
i'm walking in circles, the only thing i can think to do to leave my mark is create a circular rut in the dirt- packed down hard by all the old  rut walkers before me. i take comfort in it's consistancy, yet i'm vibrating-gyrating-myself-mysoul-is set on STUN and is wrapped up in this pointless ruber band body.

fingers coiled in hair, slight tugging, i'm leaning out of the photograph.